Are writers a self-absorbed, whiny lot?

I’ve just said goodbye to daughter, son-in-law and grandson, so I am feeling a bit bereft.

One interesting thing Daughter said while she was here was that she really doesn’t like to read writer blogs/websites. ‘When I read a good book, I am transported to another world, I live there for a time, inside the mind of others, in another place – and I think what a wonderful person this author must be to be able to write like that.

‘And so often when I have gone to their blog or website, what do I find? A self-absorbed, whining individual, full of themselves, totally unattractive, sometimes seriously peculiar – and I think to myself, “This is the person who wrote that wonderful book?” Nope, I’d rather not know.’

Oops. Here we writer-bloggers are, madly blogging away and fondly imagining ourselves to be promoting our books by showing how articulate and witty and wild we are – and all the time we come across as a mob of whingeing meglomaniacs?

I shall now post a couple of photos taken during our holiday on Langkawi Island – neither of which show me. Just to be sure you all realise I am not totally self-absorbed. Proving I am not peculiar might be harder.

Ending the year…

So why no blog for so long? Well, this slow internet speed because of the overloaded undersea cables (the ones that aren’t broken) just drove me up the wall. I still haven’t received all my emails. And then we went away to Langkawi Island – more about that soon.

So let me start at the beginning – the end of 2006.

Hari Raya Haji – That’s what the celebration for the climax of the period of the Haj is called in Malaysia. And we always go back to Malacca for a family reunion – and, of course, a big feast with lots of festive food. And if there is something Malaysians do well, it is cook. This year the feast fell on the last day of the month – so this is what we spent the last day of 2006 doing. Eating.

The photo shows us trying to get the whole extended family, all dressed in festive finery, in the one place at the one time for the family photo – and there’s always one kid who has other ideas…!

If you look hard at Grandson, you will see that he has his arm in a sling. Yep, he spent his time back in the kampung breaking an arm by jumping off the sofa.

Hi, I’m back, sort of…

I’m still alive, never fear. Will have a proper blog on Monday. Have been lazing away on a tropical isle with family, exhausting myself by eating too much, sleeping too much, and doing the occasional run-after-the-two-year-old thing, just to keep fit.

Someone out there doesn’t want me to die

I am the typical absolutely pathetic author who has to google her name every so often to see what people are saying about her books.

Serves me right, of course.

Over on Blogpulse, up pops a blog entry by someone saying they loved Heart of the Mirage, and they are so worried – because of my venerable old age, you see – that I might die before I finish the series.

I am tickled to death (oops, now that’s an unfortunate metaphor) and will do my very best to stay alive, I promise. I cannot think of a lovelier comment from a reader. Thank you!

Roll on 2007 and may I still be alive at the end of it! Happy New Year everyone.

How does the spam do it?

We in Malaysia are suffering internet problems at the moment because of the
Taiwanese earthquake doing something or other to an undersea cable. So emails often don’t arrive or can’t be sent, googling is as slow as a sleepy loris if it works at all.

Yet the spam still arrives by the bucketload (inboxload?), no problem. I have had about 20 versions of the Nigerian scam in the past 2 days for a start…

I hope there is a special place in hell for spammers quite frankly. A place where they have to delete individually every single spam message they ever sent, over and over again.

Another photo from the family’s Oz trip. Like father, like son?

When you lose the page number

Here’s my grandson contemplating the anguish of responsibility that goes with acknowledging the existential nature of Humankind.

Or maybe he is just looking at the Indian Ocean and wondering how he can cross that wall and get in all that lovely water…

And then there’s me, with loads of comments from my agent suggesting changes to The Song of the Shiver Barrens, each comment linked to the page of the manuscript.

Unfortunately, although I haven’t changed the actual text since I sent her a copy, my page numbering no longer matches that on her copy…

WAAAAAH!

Nice vibes, thanks!

Feeling miles better, and the family is back, so all is right with the world. Because I have a death wish, I am going to post a couple of photos they took in Western Australia while they were there. Expect to hear of a case of matricide in a day or two…
Do I have a couple of beautiful daughters, or what?

Of floods and reasons and humanity.

Malaysia has just suffered some awful floods down in the south of the Malay Peninsula, caused by a massive rainfall combined with storm surge up the rivers. The funny thing is that Singapore doesn’t seemed to have suffered. (For you geographically challenged other-side-of-the-worlders, Singapore hangs off the bottom of the Peninsula, hooked on by a couple of bridges, and yes, it is another country).

When I was working down in the mangroves of the south back in the nineties, we came across a couple of things that raised our environmentalist eyebrows. Both were as a result of projects by the state government.

One was a large road being driven across a mangrove area in order to connect, ultimately, the east of the state to the state capital by a more direct route. The road was raised above the water level, like a bund or levee. We approached it by a small boat up a small river and suddenly there was the road ahead of us – and there were no culverts underneath to allow the passage of water.

That’s right. The engineers had cut the river in two with a road. Upstream there were more mangroves, now cut off from the tide and doomed to die – and villages, now doomed at a guess to flooding.

The second project we saw was a failed attempt to farm a coastal area. Mangroves had been cleared and the land parcelled out to grow coconuts or pineapples. A bund had been built to keep the sea out. And it was breached during a storm, flooding the whole area and devastating the farms, which were then abandoned. Mile upon mile of wasteland, desert in the tropics.

I guess those flooded Malaysians are suffering the effects of past government policy which encouraged development without a thought for environmental cost. Now, of course, they are having to rethink, and I believe they are replanting mangroves in parta of Malaysia. It would have been cheaper to listen to us.

When NGOs complained in the 1990s about the development of rivers right up to the water’s edge in spite of an old colonial law that stated that riverbanks were sacrosanct for, I think, 50 yards on either side (I could be wrong about the actual figure), the government of the time said airily that that was not really what the law said. It was just advice.

Advice they were apparently happy to ignore.

Well, a lot of Malaysians have suffered this holiday season. I wonder why.

There’s a photograph here, which is actually from a previous flood this time last year, but which I think sums up a lot. It shows a man saving his cat. This is an elderly man in the process, one guesses, of losing all his worldly wealth – which may not have been much to begin with. Yes, he’s a Muslim Malaysian, in the midst of personal suffering, but I wonder if he is any different from anyone of heart anywhere else. In this coming year, if you feel tempted to make a sweeping statement about another group of people, think of this picture.

Christmas past, Christmas present…

Memories of being a child on the farm in Western Australia. Waking up very early Christmas morning to find Santa had been and inevitably left a book, among other things – my mother’s way of making darn sure she didn’t get disturbed too early by a kid wanting to open presents. Christmas inextricably mixed up with the dry dusty smells of summer, the somnolent sound of cicadas, the beginning of the long summer holiday, the knowledge that we’d soon leave for two weeks living in a caravan at the beach.

The presents – books, books, books – those are what I liked best and what I remember most. Oh, and the mysterious parcels that arrived from an aunt working for the UN in Japan, then Korea, and finally New York. I still remember the exquisiteness of a Korean doll and the Japanese laquer work jewellery book…they were a peep at a world far away that I knew nothing about.

My first white Christmas. Vienna. Going to the Kriskindelmarkt, all the lights sparkling, feet scrunching over the snow in the bitter cold, warming my hands on a packet of hot chestnuts. The kids building their first snowman in the back yard and making angels in the snow…

And then there was yesterday. Knocked flat with a very painful infection, and ending up having to send an SOS to my very lovely sister-in-law to come and take me to the hospital emergency room. AARGH.

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Christmas Eve, and I am shouting at the ceiling. Literally.

Here I am, in my study, desperately trying to finish a project paper on avitourism potential in Malaysia so that I can return to my final(?) rewrite of The Song of the Shiver Barrens, and there’s this darn scamper, scamper, scamper, squeak, squeak, squeak all the time over my head. The civets are having a ball. The female has another litter by the sound of it, but how can I work with that racket going on? I finally decide to drown them out with a spot of Bruckner, played very loudly…

BTW, there’s an interesting discussion developing on yesterday’s entry.

Merry Christmas everyone*

*change as appropriate to suit your religious beliefs/non-beliefs!